I realized that I have been writing /document what happened to my life almost everyday since I was 12.
Having a sketch book and pens next to my reach is important. If I do not have one, I will make one. I need at least few pens. Not one. What if one runs out of ink.
Last time my friend asked if I want to do 10 days silent retreat with her. No phone. I would have say yes. But sketching would not be allowed during the retreat. That why I could not do it. No having sketch book and pens around makes me nervous.
After reviewing 20 diaries that I brough from Vietnam, I know that writing every down actually saved me from my chaos life back then.
I had so many thoughts at once. Writings out to lean my internal system was not bad idea.
Growing up , I would write less and sketch more. Still everyday, events and thoughts have become shapes, forms and colors with a lot of collage. Doing collage is very convenient. If I do not like what I draw or paint, i just collage that part to make into something else.
Collage is also an act of " putting thing back together", like sewing. Something is broken, you simply can glue them back. The outcome is very satisfied, you get a grand new thing.
Still I need to do everyday to keep myself saint. If not my crazy mind would ... I don't even know what happen.
Now it would be better because I have been slowing myself down a lot of meditation, yoga and drawings instead of writing.
